Closeted teen hockey player’s terrific blog

May 20, 2010 update: Mikey found to be a deception.

Original article:

One of the best things about the Internet for gay people is the ability to reach out and connect, especially for young people still in the closet. A new blog, a gay hockey kids life, fits this mold well and is my favorite new blog. I urge people to check it out.

Mikey, the blog’s creator, is a 17-year-old senior at a suburban Minneapolis high school who plays on his school’s hockey team. He started the blog less than a month ago. I happened to stumble across it from another link and am hooked. Mikey is very funny (I can imagine him rolling his eyes as he writes), self-aware and observant. The blog is often humorous, sometimes poignant but always engaging. For someone who uses the word “boring” a lot, Mikey sure makes his life sound interesting.

His writing style takes a bit getting used to. He texts more than writes. Everything is in lowercase, punctuation is sparse and common words are spelled in text shorthand (“ne” for “any,” “proly” for “probably”), but one quickly gets in the rhythm.

Mikey told me via e-mail (in his same texting style) that he started the blog after “i started reading a few other blogs by some other gay kids in the closet and it seemed like a cool way to sorta out urself a lil bit to people who dont know u. plus since i started doin this i have heard from a few other gay kids playin team sports and i really dint think there was neone else like me out there till recently and im sure that there are other kids who think the same thing.”

He’s only out to two people (his younger brother and a friend) and since he has college hockey aspirations, he plans on staying closeted for now. “But i hate it everyday havin to lie to everyone,” he wrote me. He said he thinks some teammates would be OK with him being gay, but that it would be hard to be out and play. I asked him if he hears anti-gay comments and he said players “always are sayin something bad is gay, n callin each other fags or homos or gayboys or shit like that as like a major slam.”

What most shines through on the blog is Mikey’s love of hockey. He has been skating since he was 3 and playing since he was 5. One of his posts is a terrific primer he calls Hockey 101, which explains the sport to the uninitiated.

I find myself rooting for Mikey, on and off the ice, and hope he can work through the frustration of being a closeted jock. We have been writing about this for years on Outsports, and it’s people like Mikey who show the importance of people reaching out to each other. Despite him thinking he is being weak for staying closeted, he is dealing with the circumstances he is in, and his writing has the potential to make a difference to others. I hope others in his situation check out his blog and drop him a line.

I wanted to share some of my favorite passages from Mikey’s blog:

From his first post:

ive pretty much known i was gay for awhile but tried to ignore it for a long time but its just hard to do it. i told [a friend] and my lil bro this summer and there the first to know bout me, i wish i could tell everyone but im chicken and scared that bein out would screw up chances to play hockey after hs. it toly sucks cause like everyday i lie to everyone i know and love and that just sucks bigtime. i wish i was strong enough just to tell people but im not and i hate that bout me too … being a weak liar sucks. im like the only kid i know not havin ne sex at all but other than gettin sucked by two girls last year im not and that sucks too. all the guys i like are straight as far as i know but its sucky cause no one knows or suspects im gay either so who knows they could be too.

On awkward social situations:

had a decent time [at a party] till this girl toly started hitting on me and pretty much wanted to hook up. this is why i hate these things cause i gotta come up wit some lameo excuse why i cant and it always sounds stupid and then the girl ends up pissed at me. i always hear that gay guys have tons of friends who are girls but i dont at all, they all either ignore me or are pissed at me …. sucks

On dealing with sleep accommodations with his team during a tournament:

we share rooms when we travel and they cram 4 of us in one room now to save money so gotta share a bed. i know people wanna hear that i fell asleep and woke up and this toly hot kid i play wit was suckin on my dick, but i gotta report no such luck. i mean the hot kid part is true (i mean tons of the kids i play wit r hot but i try not to think bout it) but the whole rest dint happen. when i have to share a bed i sleep like crap huggin the edge of the bed cause im afriad ill wake up spoonin the kid and he’ll freak out cause i got my boner in his ass.

His review of “2012,” which was as on point as any big-time critic:

it basicaly sucked … i mean some cool effects but the story was sorta stupid and i dint really care bout lots of the characters so i was sorta happy when some of them died.

On clueless teachers:

hey im in history rite now, and my teacher gave us time to go to the library and do some searching to figure out what historical movie we want to write a paper on … im thinking the 300. he said it will be good for us to get used to using google. im like wtf who is he talkin to, like any kid in the class doesnt know how to use google. so of course im not gonna do that im gonna write on my blog instead, since im sorta familiar wit google and how to search for porn, ooops i mean historical stuff.

On spending a post-church breakfast with only adults, including his parents and grandparents:

not sure if neone elses mom does this, but shes all like hey mikey this lady is best friends wit the daughter of the woman who cut ur hair when u were like 5, remember her, well shes got a girl ur age who u should talk to sometime …. yea ill pass on that, and pass the syrup.

On his relationship with his dad:

my dad and i used to be close when i was little but over like the last 3 or 4 years it seems like he toly focuses all his pride and attention on my older and younger bro, and i just get the crap. i just want him to be proud of me and i never ever see it from him. … after [some success], i texted him bout it and got nothin from him, no congrats nothing. i even asked my mom if he got the message and he did but he dint say nething. … so i mean i dont hate the guy, im just tryin not to care cause everytime i do i get hurt more.

On his hockey idols:

some of my hockey idols are old school bobby orr a dman who changed the position by becoming the first offensive dman …. i have his autograph and met him twice and hes by far my biggest hockey idol even though i only have seen him play on like youtube. i always loved joe sakic, chris chellios, thomas vakek, chris pronger, and am huge brent burns and miko koivu fans. someone asked about other guys, like sid the kid. hes amazing but a lil bit too whiny for me.

On his hockey gear

mine weights like 75 pounds …. ohh and it all smells really really bad, way worse than any other sport, i dont know why but its bad. we have to keep our stuff in the garage cause my mom wont let it in the house. i also always have 4 sticks with me, all taped up (the blades and the shaft) exactly how i like em. they break about once every 2 weeks. (bet u thought i was gonna talk bout the other kinda shaft here, sorry to disapoint u)

Update: Mikey did a Podcast with BenDave.com in January 2010. His segment is about 40 minutes in and is worth a listen.

Note: I do not know Mikey’s identity but have corresponded with him enough to believe he is who he says he is. I have read all his entries and nothing about his blog seems fantastical. But, as always, every reader needs to make up his own mind.

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64 Comments on “Closeted teen hockey player’s terrific blog”

  1. #1 sportinlife
    on Dec 8th, 2009 at 8:44 PM

    Just hope he keeps writing, grammar notwithstanding. It seems to be better – and less expensive – than therapy or drugs.

    And he’s making some other people happy. That’ll be his saving grace if he realizes it.

  2. #2 Joe Guckin
    on Dec 8th, 2009 at 10:01 PM

    “someone asked about other guys, like sid the kid. hes amazing but a lil bit too whiny for me.”

    I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  3. #3 jenn
    on Dec 8th, 2009 at 10:31 PM

    i’m right there with joe! =)
    new favorite blog. thank you so much!

  4. #4 lacharlie13
    on Dec 8th, 2009 at 10:40 PM

    a good person,and an interesting life – I recommended the blog to my hrandson [13]

  5. #5 Vladymir
    on Dec 8th, 2009 at 10:41 PM

    Oh whatever Jim Buzinski. I’m sure we can all assume this closeted hockey kid is not that bad looking. I doubt you’d find his blog interesting if he were a fat, closeted competitive eater who’s ugly.

  6. #6 DruggyBear
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 12:23 AM

    hey, whatever floats your boat, jim :razz:

  7. #7 Cyd Zeigler jr.
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 2:32 AM

    Oh Vladymir, go to hell. Seriously, a one-way ticket. Jim has no idea what the guy looks like and your comment is just a nasty, bitchy expose of your own prejudices. To attack Jim in this way is so unfounded, so illogical, and so dead WRONG that you owe him an apology. But only after you buy your one-way ticket to eternal fire and damnation.

  8. #8 Joe Guckin
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 2:40 AM

    Vladymir, competitive eating isn’t a real sport. Then again, neither is pro wrestling yet some are inclined to write about it… :twisted:

  9. #9 sportinlife
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 8:34 AM

    “I doubt you’d find his blog interesting if he were a fat”

    How many “fat” hockey players are there?

  10. #10 doubtful as to it veracity
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 9:21 AM

    I read this “kid’s” blog. At first I thought it may have been written by a high school student. However upon further review and thought I’ve concluded that: 1. the poor grammer and texting conventions are meant to deceive readers into thinking it’s a kid; and, 2. if you re-read some of the postings (and the hockey 101 is a good example as well as some of the post where he provides insight) I do not believe these are the well formed thoughts and explanations of any 17 year old high school male.

    My hunch is that this may be written by a closeted hockey coach, referree, or former player.

  11. #11 DruggyBear
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 2:28 PM

    Typical hysterical overreaction by Cyd. I mean, Vlad was bitchy, sure, but was what he said 100% false? Why is an otherwise respectable journalist like Jim so enamored with these “closeted athlete” blogs, giving them the publicity and hits they seek (e.g. “I hope others in his situation check out his blog and drop him a line.”)? ok, so “his writing has the potential to make a difference to others”, got it, but is their situation one we’d encourage for others? It’s called “Outsports” not “Closetedsports”, right?

    In any case, these “secret gay jocks” are phonies or cowards or both, but hey if Jim likes to play along, good for him, I won’t give them the time of day.

  12. #12 Jim Buzinski
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 3:04 PM

    “My hunch is that this may be written by a closeted hockey coach, referree, or former player.”

    Wow, that’s a stretch. :roll:

    And Druggy Bear: So, you think every 17-year-old gay kid should come out of the closet regardless of his circumstances just to satisfy you?

    And for someone who “won’t give them the time of day,”you certainly are one of the most active posters on threads like these, constantly repeating your objections. Why not just post once, then move on to subjects that you will give the time of day to?

  13. #13 DruggyBear
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 3:39 PM

    “So, you think every 17-year-old gay kid should come out of the closet regardless of his circumstances just to satisfy you?”

    well this 17 y.o. I don’t know, I haven’t checked out his blog I just read your fangirl gushing and your “favorite passages”, but with this kid and “slugger”, you, the co-proprietor of OUTsports, you give them a wink and a nod to stay in the closet, cuz the circumstances are oh-so-hard for them to come out, and well, they are gracious enough just to let us know they exist and fill us in on their secret jock lives. To that I say “tough shit!” It’s ALWAYS hard to come out and there’s ALWAYS multiple reasons not to, BUT if guys like these (if they do in fact exist) were to do it, they would be making it easier for others in their situations to do just that wouldn’t they? But then we can’t fantasize about who they are really are though, so never mind….

    “And for someone who “won’t give them the time of day,”you certainly are one of the most active posters on threads like these, constantly repeating your objections.”

    touche! i suppose it’s because these threads get so much attention and comments i can’t help but join in on the debate, but point taken.

  14. #14 Richard
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 6:04 PM

    ….somehow just the type of comments I expect to come out of someone that’s self-titled “Druggybear”. If you don’t like the article, stop coming back to it.

    Regardless if the kid is real or not, other kids will read it and possibly connect to the writing in ways that will make them feel better about themselves.

    Because lord knows, the Druggys of the world aren’t helping them.

  15. #15 CubPaws
    on Dec 9th, 2009 at 11:03 PM

    @DruggyBear – unfortunately, it probably IS “oh-so-hard” for a high school athlete to come out (certainly more so than for a college athlete or a high school non-athlete). This is because you’ve got a double-whammy here: the classic homophobia of the super-masculine locker-room environment (which we might have a chance at changing over time), plus the fact that a lot of high school kids are just bastards. This second part, I’m afraid to say, is probably an unchanging aspect of reality. It goes with the territory – hormones running wild, being convinced one is absolutely right about everything, and being obsessed with fitting in (with many adopting the crap-on-others strategy to accomplish this).

    I’m from suburban Minneapolis myself, and while I was not a competitive athlete in high school, I certainly spent my share of time in the weight room. And, as with Mikey, there’s no way I’d ever have come out in that setting. (I finally did in my freshman year of college). Yes, in retrospect, I wish I’d have had the courage to come out earlier – and I really respect people who do. But I don’t see that as a reason to look down on people who don’t feel ready to make that big step.

  16. #16 Daniel
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 8:09 AM

    Has anybody bother to check who is following this kid? Is it other kids or old trolls pass there prime? I check there is a wide range of ages following more trolls but I guess that’s to be expected. The writing I question only there are other bloggers his age that spell and not text what there talking about. Like this blog he seems to write well http://illdotricksforyou.blogspot.com/ He is into sports but don’t really say if he’s gay, bi or anything for that matter. Just saying he don’t seem to be hurting anyone or asking for anything so how is a teen suppose to write I guess that is the question.

  17. #17 Wayne Madison
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 8:48 AM

    What the hell is wrong with this kid’s father? Does he suspect he’s gay, & is that why he’s being cold to him? This is the kind of shit that makes kids go postal!

    His mother could help: “Honey, I think Mikey’s feeling very hurt. You heap praise on the other kids but ignore him, and Jesus you didn’t even respond when he texted you he’d made team captain for heaven’s sake. You need to be a better parent.”

    If Dan Conner had pulled this shit, you know Roseanne wouldn’t have stood for it.

  18. #18 just a reader
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 1:58 PM

    What a good young man, and what a great man he will become. He’s going to make a guy very happy one day. I know toly it. :wink:

  19. #19 just a reader
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 1:58 PM

    toly know it. haha.

  20. #20 Jay Original
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 2:48 PM

    Sounds like Vlad is more angry with the kid than Jim. But none of us can go back in time and get a do-over to be in touch with their sexuality like this kid is.

    Druggy, part of me wants to watch MILK after reading what you wrote, the other part thinks back to being a 17 yr old athlete and how it took 17 years to come out. It’s a personal choice. Yes it helps others. But you have to do it for yourself.

    If it’s fake then I guess it’s just fake. I’d rather be not talking about the Cowboys futility anyway.

  21. #21 John McClelland
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 3:24 PM

    Glad he is out there so other kids know they’re not alone.

  22. #22 Cyd Zeigler jr.
    on Dec 10th, 2009 at 4:55 PM
  23. #23 DJ
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 6:36 AM

    Oh for fucks sake, what the fuck is wrong with you people? Someone finds a blog that belongs to some high school athlete who says he’s gay and butchers the English language in the process of it all, and a few of you cast your doubts whether it’s legit or not? I’m 19, and hey you know what, I know people in my age bracket who can type with grace, and there are people who write and cause people to cringe.

    “Well formed thoughts of a 17 yo…” What the fuck does that mean? What fucking 17 yo has well formed thoughts? The stereotypical nerd or geek that has a ridiculously high English grade and who kisses ass to the teacher? Sure. Most 17 yo’s I know pull great grades, but when they’re out of school, they don’t give a damn how they type.

    All the back and forth bitching between Vlad the Russian/Ukie, Cyd, Jim, Jay, Cubby or DruggyBear is a joke. Seriously, this is what’s so wrong with all you. None of you, in my time reading this blog, can convey your thoughts without becoming over emotional people just because of what someone said. Sure Vlad said some nasty stuff to Jim. Who gives a flying fuck? The guy obviously has some issues. I mean, come on, which hockey player is fat?

    I would never see such an argument with straight people. It saddens me to say this, but this is why I’ve been slowly stepping away from the gay community and all things gay for the past 6 months. It disgusts me to no end that this is the shit in store for me. I would rather lie and say I’m straight, as I have been doing and begging people to forget everything than to experience this in life. So it’s either A) Lie B) Live through this shit C) Kill myself. And A and C look great at times, okay, usually A.

    What a disgrace, I mean no offense, but you’re all getting too emotional over something so small. None of you can even insult each other, what are you going to say? “Vlad, go suck a dick!”? I’m sure he has and still does.

    It’s gotten so annoying that I literally hate reading anything on this site or anything in the news that’s remotely fruity. I saw a gay couple the other day and was literally disgusted until I caught myself and asked myself why I had just made a sour face. I’m done with this, I’m just done.

  24. #24 Evan
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 2:49 PM

    “It saddens me to say this, but this is why I’ve been slowly stepping away from the gay community and all things gay for the past 6 months. It disgusts me to no end that this is the shit in store for me. I would rather lie and say I’m straight, as I have been doing and begging people to forget everything than to experience this in life.”

    Uncle Tom-ism is the gay community no knows age it looks like. I thought that was fading away with the younger generations.

    Self-loathing and the gay community are synonymous. They are the same. 40 plus years of gay civil rights, and you look no further than individuals who make comments like the one above, which is very common and said all the time by gay men mostly.

    Harvey Milk is probably rolling over in his grave. Do you know who Harvey Milk was DJ? Probably not. Most in the gay community have no clue who he even was.

  25. #25 Evan
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 2:51 PM

    “What a disgrace…

    It’s gotten so annoying that I literally hate reading anything on this site or anything in the news that’s remotely fruity. I saw a gay couple the other day and was literally disgusted until I caught myself and asked myself why I had just made a sour face. I’m done with this, I’m just done.”

    LOL. See ya buddy, call NARTH. Or, start a blog.

  26. #26 Evan
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 2:56 PM

    I love this web site! I’ve been here a few times and it’s great.

    I love the fruity faggotiness of it all, more of it please!!! Segregate who’s a “top or a bottom”. Or who has gayface? Sean Avery has gayface for years!

    PS,
    Athletes who are into fisting would be nice to read every once in while.

    :wink:

  27. #27 Joe Guckin
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 6:21 PM

    “I would never see such an argument with straight people.”

    You’re kidding, right? Or else you’re incredibly naive if you think straight people don’t have ridiculous insult-filled arguments, both online and in real life.

    If you have issues with being gay or being part of the gay community or gay couples who disgust you (although you don’t say what exactly disgusted you), I wish you the best of luck in dealing with them. But don’t think your life will be any better by pretending to be straight.

  28. #28 Jay Original
    on Dec 12th, 2009 at 9:24 PM

    DJ,

    I am not sure what’s going on in your life right now, but if you’d like to talk about it send me a private message.

    If you aren’t comfortable with that idea, you should think about calling 866-488-7386, it’s a 24/7 suicide hotline run by the Trevor Project that focuses on helping young people struggling with their sexuality.

    In regard to your other comments, opinions are just like assholes. Everyone has one. The fact that we disagree or comment on each other is the purpose of this website or any other online community. But you already know that bro. xoxo

  29. #29 Danny
    on Dec 15th, 2009 at 11:35 AM

    Hate to bust anyone’s bubble but this Mikey guy is a fraud. I was supportive at first but now I have proof. Soon I will let everyone know what the proof is.

  30. #30 SCTrojan
    on Dec 16th, 2009 at 8:54 PM

    DJ,

    I can see & understand your frustration w/ some of the trolls who post on the blogs here on OS. But considering that many of us have given you nothing but support & heart-felt advice in the past I find it insulting that you have such a negative view of others here. I for one was sincere & deeply concerned about helping you along w/ your sexuality issues. But now, I honestly feel like I’ve been punched in the face for something that I truly don’t understand.

    Whatever it is you’re going through kiddo I hope you work it out & find peace. As far as insulting the regular posters here, I think you best think twice about what it is you’re trying to convey.

    & I have to agree w/ Joe about straight posters on other sites. Trust me, OSers are tamed in comparison to other non glbt sites.

  31. #31 Evan
    on Dec 19th, 2009 at 2:37 PM

    “I find it insulting that you have such a negative view of others here. ”

    Please don’t. It’s homophobes like this, who make comments like this who hurt, or do nothing to help gay kids who are openly gay, and not as “masculine” as he is. That is in my opinion, the worst kind of person that exists.

  32. #32 corrective_unconscious
    on Dec 20th, 2009 at 6:31 PM

    So he’s supposed to be a closeted high school ice hockey player in the burbs of Minneapolis, he’s recently made the captain, and he has a photo of himself in a team uniform. (Blurred or not doesn’t matter.)

    Anyone near that scene could figure out from this information who he is. Something here strains credulity, which in itself is harmless…until you think about how gullible the population at large is in general to glaze over such obvious questions. That ain’t harmless.

  33. #33 Joe McTardy
    on Dec 28th, 2009 at 8:50 PM

    Way to leave his shoulder number exposed. Will probably take me all ofg five minutes to figure out who the player pictured is, which may or may not be the blogger in question.

  34. #34 jd
    on Dec 31st, 2009 at 10:31 PM
  35. #35 Shawn
    on Jan 1st, 2010 at 10:50 AM

    JD, that was not him. This 17 year old lives in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area. This poor guy lived in the Boston area. Very sad though.

  36. #36 sm
    on Jan 9th, 2010 at 2:14 PM

    from the creators of “a gay athletes life” comes “a gay hockey kids life”!

  37. #37 Joe Guckin
    on Jan 20th, 2010 at 1:58 AM

    Mikey has done an interview on a podcast. You can listen to it here if you’re interested.

    http://www.bendave.com/saywhat/2010/01/episode-29-sherlock-homos.html

  38. #38 Jim Buzinski
    on Jan 20th, 2010 at 2:58 AM

    He’s pretty good and his segment is about 40 minutes in.

  39. #39 Jimmy
    on Jan 20th, 2010 at 11:01 AM

    Been following Mikey’s blog from the beginning and to the people doubting his authenticity: Shut the fuck up. To Danny who’s been on the case since Dec 15th: Yes, yer my hero bro, but shut the fuck up, then go away.

    To the people who can’t accept Mikey stayin in the closet: Please listen up: For a kid who has pro aspirations, sadly, he can’t come out. As any NHL team prepares for the draft, they know everything there is to know about a potential draft choice. If a team can chose between two kids with the exact same skill set, one straight , one openly gay, they’re gonna pick the ‘straight’ kid. And it’s not that the team is homophobic. It’s just an added hassle they don’t want or need. Again, sad but true.

    As I said to Mikey, there are around 800 players in the NHL. Let’s say 80 or more are gay. How many are bi? Who knows. None of them have come out. Why’s a nice kid from Minnesota gotta be the trailblazer?!? Cut the guy some slack for christsake.

    I’m not many years removed from exactly where Mikey is today. I know for a fact that it tears him up that he can’t be ‘honest’ to the people he cares about or to himself. I didn’t come out – never even considered it. All I wanted to do was play hockey and have sex. Mikey’s moral standards are higher than mine. That sucks for Mikey jr, but it’s true…

    And finally to Joe from Philly: You crack me up, man! I get it – you don’t like Sid the Kid or anything Pittsburgh. But if anyone should be wearin a dress it’s fuckin Pronger cause his wife wears the pants in that family! Hahahaha

    That’s it. That’s my rant. Good podcast Jim. Good radio interview Mikey. Good luck Danny. Go find Osama…the fuck off.

    ~Jimmy

  40. #40 Joe Guckin
    on Jan 20th, 2010 at 5:43 PM

    I wouldn’t say I don’t like anything Pittsburgh. I just don’t like the Penguins. :mrgreen:

  41. #41 Jimmy
    on Jan 21st, 2010 at 2:13 AM

    Hey Joe. Sorry bout generalizing…there’s a blogger from Toronto who says he likes EVERYTHING Pittsburgh. WTF’s with that? I see you never mention the Sixers. My dad would never shut up about Dr. J, Moses Malone, World B. Free (?) – tho the last one I think is made up…He stopped carin around the time of AI.

    Now Joe, please be nice to our lil Sidney. He sells a helluva lot of coffee n donuts up here. Peace!

    ~Jimmy

  42. #42 Carl
    on Jan 27th, 2010 at 12:56 PM

    I have been following this blog for quite sometime, as well as other blogs just like it, “the closeted athlete” scenario, and what I find most interesting, despite the very detailed description of their particular sport, which seems very forced, but, the bloggers who run the blog go from blog to blog plugging their blog in the comments section. They are all over the place. It reminds me very much of spam or porn sites. Is that what closeted athletes do? The constant plugging makes you very suspect of these blogs.

  43. #43 Mike Hunt
    on Jan 27th, 2010 at 6:05 PM

    In the relatively short time I’ve spent in the blogosphere, one constant I’ve come across is the seemingless never ending supply of ‘Doubting Thomas-es’.

    No matter where you go, who you read, there are always comments from the peanut gallery, questioning the varacity of the blogger’s identity. Even this post, with 40-odd comments, has a smattering of these ridiculous naysayers.

    While I completely ‘get’ that the internet offers such opportunity, I must ask why? Why would someone create/maintain a blog and pretend to be a 17 year old gay high school hockey player? Or a 30-something minor pro baseball player? What is their end game?

    As yet, I have not read ‘Mikey’s’ blog but I certainly intend to. Based on the real comments, coupled with the excellent story by Jim Buzinski, I’m convinced Mikey’s blog is a must read. I should also point out that in my web travels, I have not once come across any comments or self-promotion by this young man, so again, I must conclude Carl and the rest of these trollers are long on accusations but completely void of facts.

    As a public service to these poor souls searching for their perverted truth, may I suggest googling ‘conspiracy theories’.
    Once you’ve found something you can’t agree on, feel free to gather, mingle and chat.

    Then at the end of the day, you can question whether any of you were ever really there…Have fun!

  44. #44 Jim Buzinski
    on Jan 27th, 2010 at 7:57 PM

    “While I completely ‘get’ that the internet offers such opportunity, I must ask why? Why would someone create/maintain a blog and pretend to be a 17 year old gay high school hockey player? Or a 30-something minor pro baseball player? What is their end game?”

    Exactly. Mikey is the real deal and his blog is terrific. He has connected with a lot of young guys like him and is making a difference.

  45. #45 Fred
    on Jan 27th, 2010 at 8:11 PM

    I think it is amazing to think that these kids or young adults have this opportunity to connect via the internet. I only wish this would have been around when I was growing up in rural Iowa….believe me there sure wasn’t anyone out there for me to talk to about things! Could have made growing up a bit more pleasant.

  46. #46 Carl
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 12:57 PM

    It doesn’t matter if it’s real or fake, it’s a fantasy and fetish for the readers. The readership is 95% old man, and rather disturbing, self-loathing gay old men at that.

  47. #47 Jim Buzinski
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 1:40 PM

    “he readership is 95% old man, and rather disturbing, self-loathing gay old men at that.”

    Total BS. I read his blog regularly and he has a lot of gay teens who read and comment. Have you done some scientific sample to come up with 95% or did you just pull it out of the air to make your point?

    As for fantasy and fetish, more BS. Mikey never talks about sex since he doesn’t have any, and seldom mentions hot guys, so not sure where the fetish or fantasy fit in. Are you sure you even read his blog or did you just skim it so you could come on here and slam it and his readers? The answer is obvious.

  48. #48 Carl
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 6:25 PM

    How old are you Jim?

    “seldom mentions hot guys” I rest my case.

    Festish.

    PS, Don from Lakeside is a peach isn’t he? He’s the creepiest one of them all.

  49. #49 Carl
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 6:29 PM

    oh and btw, when he does mention “hot guys” you better believe these creepy old trolls will be stroking their cock to every word he says, if they are not already. Did you read the pornographic comments in the “My First Time” blog that was written by a 17 year old boy? You should read them if you have not. Is that even legal to respond in such a way? It’s gross.

  50. #50 Mike Hunt
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 7:09 PM

    @Carl

    As I’ve now had the pleasure of reading Mikey’s entire blog, I am probably safe in saying I could find more fetish and fantasy on the Vatican website.

    As a member of the 5% minority (according to your stats), may I ask exactly how old you are Carl? I seem to remember you offering to show up at Mikey’s game(s) and meet him at the Pond Hockey Championships.

    To quote the moral conscience of the internet: “is that even legal?”

  51. #51 Jay Original
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 8:02 PM

    This is weird

  52. #52 Jim Buzinski
    on Feb 1st, 2010 at 9:38 PM

    “This is weird.”

    Yes, Carl’s comments certainly are. Best to ignore.

  53. #53 Jim
    on Feb 2nd, 2010 at 3:17 PM

    Hmm – I’m surprised to read these exchanges. I thought the site was rather nice and innocent — and untouched by “wierdness”. I guess the wierdees are everywhere.

  54. #54 Nomatter
    on Feb 2nd, 2010 at 10:45 PM

    Wow, apparently there are more than a few folks here that have way too much time on their hands.

    The gay athletes that I know have no time for all your negativity crap that some of you espouse because they’re busy concentrating on being the best person they can be and the best athlete they can be.

    Seems to me the 17 yr old high school hockey player is already a far better human being than you guys are. Perhaps you could learn something from him.

  55. #55 Jake Jackson
    on Feb 21st, 2010 at 5:58 PM

    @DJ, you’re too young to be bitter. Over time, you’ll find out that people (yes, that means you too) tend to see what they want to see. If you are pulling away from the gay community because of the jerks, for some reason you are looking on the dim side. Don’t give those people so much power. There are a lot of good people among the gay tribe, along with not so good.

    @DruggieBear, and some others who doubt the blog’s veracity, the reality is that no one can know for sure. I think it’s authentic. If it’s not, well, then no one got hurt. In any case, the whole blase/jaded routine does no one any favors.

  56. #56 Carissa
    on Feb 23rd, 2010 at 4:17 PM
  57. #57 Ben
    on Apr 24th, 2010 at 12:10 PM

    Pretty lame that this whole thing turned out to be a hoax.

    http://www.hockeykidmn.com/

  58. #58 DruggyBear
    on Apr 24th, 2010 at 12:31 PM

    let this be a lesson to Jim & Cyd:

    please make sure these people are REAL before you pimp their blogs on outsports!

    is it too much to ask for their true identities before you present these people as real to the rest of us? old-school journalism is not dead… unless real journalists like u let it die. do your jobs!

  59. #59 John
    on Apr 24th, 2010 at 1:35 PM

    Listening to his interview right now on Ben and Dave’s podcast from January 18. Sounds like it could be a teenager or could easily be an older guy, possibly using something to pitch shift his voice up a tad.

  60. #60 DruggyBear
    on Apr 24th, 2010 at 1:45 PM

    “I think it’s authentic. If it’s not, well, then no one got hurt.”

    tell that to poor Jimmy

  61. #61 Ken
    on Apr 24th, 2010 at 2:03 PM

    I’m not really convinced it was all a hoax. If he was going to play D1 hockey, there is no way he could continue to blog and stay in the closet. There are not that many hockey scholarships and they are pretty much a matter of public record. The only way he could protect his anonymity is to make everyone believe the blog was fake, so he and Jimmy came up with this story. Just my crazy theory.

  62. #62 george
    on Apr 25th, 2010 at 5:11 AM

    ken, ur a moron. of course it was a hoax. ppl knew this from the very beginning, if u read all the comments. i find it hilarious that his biggest defender was “jimmy’ aka hockeyiscanda, yet he is the one that has exposed him. the whole thing stinks of a scam, by more than one person

  63. #63 Landrew
    on Apr 27th, 2010 at 8:16 AM

    It was the comments from DJ (above) that inspired me to create an account for this forum. I absolutely cherished his declaration of new found freedom. I’m not going to speak for him at all, but we, as a couple since 1991, have recently dropped out because we could not relate to just about anyone. Everyone had simply become irritating or whatever. We haven’t actually spoken of this lifestyle, but it’s an accepted notion we live with because actually talking about it would make us feel like freaks. We have decided to live in a simpler time and television plays a substantial part in it. We have turned off the television and our days are filled with Cannon, Barnaby Jones, Gilligan’s Island, The Golden Girls, MASH, All In The Family, The Bob Newhart Show, MTM, Twin Peaks and many more. That doesnt include out fascination with Robert Altman. Our only communication is the net. So, good luck DJ. Seriously.

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